So much is about to change.

I am so lost.



I got to see my sister and her kids today,I missed them so much. I love being there. Today I forgot how much I can't stand my life for a good day. My niece and nephew make me so happy. When my sister has her third kid,she is due aug 10th, I am going there and staying for awhile.I really need it.

Excuse me sir,

You make it sound so easy to be alive
But tell me how am I supposed to seize this day
When everything inside of me has died

I don't understand why people have to lie so much. No trust ever in ANYONE.

It has been awhile.

I don't even know what to say. I am most likely moving sometime soon, I am miserable in this house.This house is hell and I can't take it anymore. Even if I don't move,at least I will have Ugur's house to run away too,I am so glad I have him as a bestfriend.


Him,Mandy and Angela are all I have.






I have never felt so alone in this world than I have been lately. I have amazing three best friends,but even though I have them. I am more alone then ever. I am hitting rock bottom and I hate it. I am dying inside and I have no one that could bring me back up it seems.



Ugur told me last night, that he always thought that I was too good for my ex,he was my first love and my first everything. But has killed me on the inside. Ugur also said, I bet when he realizes what he has done and realizes that he lost the most amazing thing ever in his life,he is going to come back,even if it takes years and guess what,you are going to be long gone. And he is right.

I have lost so much these past couple months and I hate it.

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